Day 11: Grrrrrrr

Weight loss: Okay, so I actually only went 1 day without checking my weight. I weighed in yesterday at a loss of 10 pounds. I was okay with that - 10 pounds in 10 days - that's a pound a day... not to shabby!

But this morning I awoke to a GAIN of 1.5 pounds!! It doesn't make any sense really. Unless my scale is out of whack. I haven't eaten ANYTHING but the lemonade drink for 11 days now. Last night, I did have a glass of mint tea - which is allowed - with nothing in it but the tea. I know, at this point, since I have been pretty stagnant for the past 4 or 5 days, that I am probably just toggling up and down because of water weight.

Yesterdays eliminations were pretty uneventful...hmmm

I've been doing everything I can to have the proper mind set, and to try to be positive. I am doing EFT, meditating, listening to a "perfect health" and "weight loss" CD my mom sent me, exercising regularly, drinking tons of water... and I am just not losing the weight!

Another thing, this morning I did not awake to the "urge to eliminate" like I usually do. I STILL have not had the urge at this moment in time - 7:52 am. I had my smooth move tea last night, just like every other night, at 10:30 pm, and nothing! Right now, just some gargling every minute or so, so I guess something is TRYING to happen.

Patience Edith... Patience.

DECISION TIME!!

From here on out, I am not going to weigh myself until the last day - whenever I decide that may be. It could be sooner than later! I am just so sick of worrying about this. I wonder if my lack of weight loss is a sign that I am almost cleansed.

I feel fine! My energy level has been good the past couple days. No weak legs or anything when I elliptical. Maybe I am building muscle, and THAT's why I am going up a little in weight.

For whatever reason, I'm trying to keep a good attitude. I originally started this cleanse to DETOX not to lose weight... but losing weight has become almost an obssession now.

Wanna know a secret? Even if I SAY I'm not going to check the scale, I will. I can't help it.
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3:45 pm
Currently having a lemon drink. The cayenne accidentally poofed in my face while I was making it. I just sneezed so hard, my ab muscles tightened and knotted up for a second. I couldn't UNknot them - it was crazy!!

My energy level took a turn for the worse as the afternoon has gone on... I feel really weak and when I stand up really fast, I get light-headed for a brief moment.

Also, and I didn't mention this earlier, this morning I did the tea instead of the SWF as a break from it, and ALL THROUGHOUT the day I have been having uncomfortable cramps and the "urge" to go.

I know you don't want to, but WOO!! You should see what just came out. It was kind of scary but exciting all at the same time. hahaha